Friday, April 3, 2009
what the hell do i do that for?
I've been talking to a boy today. A boy apparently not interested in meaningless sex or random hook ups. A rather attractive boy, here at LSU. Very nice seeming. It's too soon, of course, to make any real assessments, but tell me, is it wrong that when I looked at our "Friends In Common" on Facebook, and saw that half the list I've screwed around with, and the other half I've tried to screw around with, it made me a little uncomfortable? And once again, we're back to gay men in BR. And the impossibility of meeting a nice guy who hasn't already made it through the rounds. I hate the fact that there are rounds, and that I've been 'round some of them, but does it make me a hypocrite to want someone who doesn't know some of the same people I've been with? It's not even that I'm being greedy or selfish. I just hate complications, and in this town, that's all gay guys are. It's like a sport for them, fucking exes and new guys over. And with the web that's woven here, there are a lot of scary strings that can be pulled. I don't know how vindictive some of these guys can be, because, to be totally honest, I don't know many of these guys very well. I don't know, I might just be too hard on the local gay community as a whole, but from what I've seen... I just feel like I should be cautious, and that doesn't leave a lot of room for falling recklessly in love. Which is about what I need right now, I think. But anyway. Perhaps this will pan out, but there's also a chance it won't go anywhere, he'll end up not interested, or I'll do something to boink it (like I usually do). Either way, I'll keep you posted, and I'll figure out what to call him in Blogworld whenever that becomes an issue, if it ever does. For now, I'm going to go to bed, wake up early, and try to study for my Spanish reading quiz that I put off. Work this weekend for the first time in a week, I'm sure I'll have something fun to say after that. Until then, wish me luck, and I'll return the favor. After all, why wouldn't I? You are putting up with reading this. Nighty night. Je t'aime.
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It wouldn't make you a hypocrite to want to have someone who doesn't know the same people you know. That would probably be a big + . That's why I rarely go out in B.R. anymore. I do know a lot of guys, but not because I've made the "rounds", but just because I know a lot of people I guess. But being very cautious is a very good idea. Falling in love is kinda scary, but spending time with someone and "growing" in love is always the best bet. Hope the test and work go good for you :)
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