i am giving up on making passes, and i am giving up on half empty glasses

Ladies and gentlemen, I've made a resolution.  Lo and behold, it has to do with boys.  Gasp, I know.  Let's hear it.

I will treat all gay men that I meet as people, acquaintances, even friends, not options.

I will not expect from any man anything that he should not expect from me.  He has no obligation to me, and until there is a reason, it shall remain so.

Basically, what I'm saying here, people, is that I am going to go about meeting people normally, through friends, and shall treat them as such unless they give me reason to treat them otherwise.  I will make acquaintances, make ties, and, eventually, I will meet someone who will like me as much as I like them.  But men are just men, not slabs of meat, not playthings.  I'm going to do my best to be a better person than I've been recently, and I feel that it will reflect on my life in the future.  I'm really trying not to sound like a self help book, but I just feel like I need a change.  I've already implemented a part of this plan.  The other day, I received an e-mail from a guy on some website asking if I'd be interested in hooking up.  I politely replied that two things would have to happen for me to hook up with someone:  one, I would most definitely need to see his face (come on, I still have standards), and two, I'd have to be at least in the foremost stages of a relationship.  So I told him that if he'd like to show me what he looked like, then maybe get some coffee or see a movie, by all means, he should e-mail me back.  He hasn't yet.

And there it is.  The whole of this God forsaken community is perpetually obsessed with sex.  Yeah, admittedly, about a week ago, I was too.  But for some time now, I've been needing so much more than sex.  And now, I think I'm finally ready to just wait for it.  Phew.